To have my honesty in the future, you'd need my honesty about the past, right?
[He gives that up pretty willingly. If Sousei wants Tenka to talk about things with him in the future, there's a lot to cover in the past ten years. In the past ten years, Tenka has willingly continued to take the Orochi medicine in order to maintain mobilization, watched over his younger brothers and tried to find ways to separate the Orochi from the vessel, and also added one more to their family in the form of Kinjou Shirasu.
In the future, there will be obstacles like Tenka possibly giving into the Orochi cells in his body or becoming paralyzed, actually having to deal with Soramaru as the Orochi, and the eventual reappearance of Shirasu in Tenka's life. None of those can really be discussed in full without knowing the things that led to them in the first place.
So Tenka just sighs.
He's not good at sharing. Botan was the one who came up to him to talk about helping his goal and otherwise he never would've brought it up with her. It's always just been him and Shirasu - ever since Sousei and the rest of the Yamainu left. Because the things in Tenka's life are truly painful and he knows it.
Every single time something like this comes up - when they talk about the real reason why Tenka left the Yamainu, when Sousei gets closer to finding out more about the experiments, when Tenka opens his mouth to talk about the things that happened to him - it causes Sousei pain.
If he shares the truth with Sousei, he'll just be causing his partner more pain because of decisions that Tenka made in the past.
All he can do is snort softly.]
.... You're going to get mad at me.
[Possibly hate him, think he's a monster, discover just how far his foolishness goes-]
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[He gives that up pretty willingly. If Sousei wants Tenka to talk about things with him in the future, there's a lot to cover in the past ten years. In the past ten years, Tenka has willingly continued to take the Orochi medicine in order to maintain mobilization, watched over his younger brothers and tried to find ways to separate the Orochi from the vessel, and also added one more to their family in the form of Kinjou Shirasu.
In the future, there will be obstacles like Tenka possibly giving into the Orochi cells in his body or becoming paralyzed, actually having to deal with Soramaru as the Orochi, and the eventual reappearance of Shirasu in Tenka's life. None of those can really be discussed in full without knowing the things that led to them in the first place.
So Tenka just sighs.
He's not good at sharing. Botan was the one who came up to him to talk about helping his goal and otherwise he never would've brought it up with her. It's always just been him and Shirasu - ever since Sousei and the rest of the Yamainu left. Because the things in Tenka's life are truly painful and he knows it.
Every single time something like this comes up - when they talk about the real reason why Tenka left the Yamainu, when Sousei gets closer to finding out more about the experiments, when Tenka opens his mouth to talk about the things that happened to him - it causes Sousei pain.
If he shares the truth with Sousei, he'll just be causing his partner more pain because of decisions that Tenka made in the past.
All he can do is snort softly.]
.... You're going to get mad at me.
[Possibly hate him, think he's a monster, discover just how far his foolishness goes-]
What do you want to know?