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Abe no "screw the rules" Sousei [ 安部 蒼世 ] ([personal profile] deontology) wrote2014-10-09 11:04 am
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action; probably...? yeah lets go with that.

[personal profile] sunshied 2015-03-24 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
[It takes some time before he approaches Sousei, waiting for when Tenka might not be around at that very moment. He was off doing something at least and that was good enough for him. Still, he worries that Sousei might want to speak with Tenka about this to begin with but he pushes it back. He didn't want to keep hiding it from either of them.]

Sensei, are you busy?

[He wonders if maybe he should just bug him to go spar with him first and warm himself up for it but really it's too important to delay talking about.]
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[personal profile] sunshied 2015-03-24 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
I- well... I wanted to ask how much you and aniki were aware of...

[He's already floundering so he pushes forward with what he's getting at, moving to sit on the other end of the couch opposite Sousei.]

Of things back home. I know things I remember are different - like- well... a year went by after the Orochi was destroyed.

[It was closer to what he was getting at but not quite. He knows Sousei will tell him to spit it out but it was incredibly hard to just tell his brother's best friend 'hey by the way your best friend became a cripple after he stopped taking evil demon cells' and he won't even begin to touch on the fact that he's seen paperwork with Sousei's name on it in that lab. That would need to wait for another time. He could only gather courage for so many things at once.]
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[personal profile] sunshied 2015-03-24 01:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[Why is it the way Sousei can be so calm and collected at times feels incredibly intimidating? They've known each other for at least a year or so now so it's hardly surprising but it still leaves him questioning himself.]

Yes. It's just- I realized it when I got here. Aniki must still have the Orochi cells in him right? It's just- I'm worried what happens here if they're removed. Back home... he wasn't able to walk anymore after they were.

[Yes, he's stated the bulk of his concerns in a neat little statement, right? It doesn't need to be said how badly Tenka would react to such a thing.]
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[personal profile] sunshied 2015-03-25 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
I know that it shouldn't be a concern right now. It's just- what do I do? I don't like keeping things from him and he'll figure out I'm hiding things from him eventually. You know how he is.

[And Soramaru also was terrible at keeping important things secret too, given how much he hated having it done to himself.]

And... what if the suppressants stop after a while?

[He pulls his feet up as he speaks, hugging his knees and staring outwards at nothing. Tenka deserved to know what would be happening to him eventually... but Sousei was right that today was not that day.]

I don't know. I guess I just didn't want to keep it to myself, even if I've only been here for a short time. I worry about him.
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[personal profile] sunshied 2015-03-25 04:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah, well I apologize if I took it too literally, Sensei.

[He definitely feels lighter, having talked to Sousei about it, but he's still not sure how to talk to the person who should be hearing all of this. At times like this, the gap between himself and Tenka feels rather large.]

I'll talk to him.

[Eventually. Which reminds him of another thing he should ask about --]

Also... Aniki and Shirasu...? How much does Aniki know of what happened?

[Because wow if he doesn't know that Shirasu jumped or if that he totally betrayed them then wow... he's got a lot to talk to him about then. He's fine with him hanging out with him but it still is a bit concerning and a bit strange. He wants to just forgive but he's also spent enough time around Sousei to have developed a healthy sense of wariness in these situations.]
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[personal profile] sunshied 2015-03-25 04:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[The corners of his lips curve a bit when Sousei calls him cheeky. He didn't mind that at all. However, bringing up Shirasu's past deeds and what Tenka knows makes him a little surprised.]

He knows all of that and still...? [Sighing, he shakes his head. Of course Tenka would want to try and still bridge that gap. He does too, really, but at the same time there's so much wariness that has created a wall between himself and Shirasu.]

Hmm. Well... I'm fine now, so I guess it's over with. The Orochi is gone and... Shirasu jumped from a cliff after his brother was killed during the fighting.

[What a lovely story, isn't it? He certainly doesn't feel happy about anything that's happened. Part of him feels like everything was his fault, just for being the Orochi's vessel.]

I wish I knew what Aniki was thinking.

[Because once again Tenka doesn't exactly tell him these things. The both of them tended to keep things very close to their chest, unlike Chuutaro who just vomited his thoughts out at every turn.]
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[personal profile] sunshied 2015-03-25 05:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Hmm. I don't even know what's best. I'll let you know when I figure that part out.

[Growing pains of an angsty teen...? Or something. Either way he does feel glad he had this talk with Sousei.]

I feel better, knowing that it's not a bad thing to be wary.

[Sousei validating his worries and talking to him like this wasn't out of the norm, even if he was a bit of a hard ass. They had at least that much they could agree on - Shirasu was here and it would have to be dealt with eventually. Or at least he'd need to learn to be comfortable with him again.]
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[personal profile] sunshied 2015-03-30 01:41 am (UTC)(link)
I guess... it just feels wrong, but at the same time it doesn't?

[Shirasu had always been there for him and Tenka and Chuutaro. He felt like he was turning his back on all of that, but at the same time he felt as if he would be betraying all of his own feelings since his parents had died by welcoming him back readily.]

You're right. I guess I needed to hear that.

[Sousei doesn't realize the weight he's lifted from his heart, by saying he should trust himself. For so long he's relied on Tenka and Shirasu, but Sousei was helping him to trust himself first. It felt liberating somehow.]
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[personal profile] sunshied 2015-03-30 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
[IT'S COMPLICATED. Is what he wants to say.]

Nothing-!! Just that- I mean... aniki is trying to talk things out with him for a reason? I think.

[And yet he's not sure if he should accept things and do the same? It's a complicated feeling. See he's talking himself in circles he doesn't know if he should trust himself or trust his brother first or -!! He just really wishes things could go back to how they were.]